可愛的玫瑰花

 

可愛的玫瑰花
 

/天堂鳥Sun

 

《領悟》真的是曾讓很多人痛徹心扉,作為演唱者辛曉琪也就成就了傷情女人的代名詞,而她情路的坎坷,讓人們對自己的判斷更加深信不疑。可還有一首歌我們也很熟悉,叫做《可愛的玫瑰花》,浪漫得有點兒可愛,聲音甜蜜得讓我不跟唱《領悟》的那把聲音掛鈎,腦海堨u有粉紅的畫面。站在矛盾對立面上的都是辛曉琪。直到我們對面而坐,事先我以為自己會見到一張憂鬱的臉,說話聲音纖細到讓人心疼。可面對我的是一個脆而好聽得聲音說自己是個傻大姐。她,豪爽、愛笑、平和。聽她的《我也會愛上別人的》,很快樂很超脫,給《領悟》時期的自己一個徹底的顛覆。我們誤會了辛曉琪,而製造這個誤會的正是她自己。情歌媔佽h是她人生的一種閱歷,卻改變不了單純女人快樂的本性。即使40歲的年紀,她依然是朵怒放的玫瑰花,盛開在太陽下

 

千嬌百媚紅玫瑰

 

採訪辛曉琪之很怕她那麼感性,因為自己也是一個十分感性的人,真怕會出現想像中淚眼相對的畫面。可是出現在我視線堛滿A是一個穿著薄紗的花衣,七分牛仔褲的美麗女人,她的眼睛屬於那種亮晶晶的,笑容更加迷人,新潮年輕充滿了成熟女人的味道。“你跟大家想象中的好像不太一樣哦!”“哈哈∼”還未開口,辛曉琪先笑起來,手一揮:“你們對我的印象一定是停留在《領悟》階段吧。其實那個也是我,不過只是一部分啦。我還有另外一面,就是很開朗,大咧咧地,有點傻大姐。”“我好像真實已經感覺到了耶,《領悟》的時候,你是一副很傷情的樣子,可是《我也會愛上別人的》明顯聽得到一種平和的幸福。”“對,現在是我整理好了的一個階段,即使是從前的情歌,我也罷之前比較早的心境唱成是走出來的、以第三者的角度和感覺去詮釋。因為有一些歌雖然大家一聽馬上就想到沉浸到傷感深情的情緒堙A可這次我在唱的時候因為比較希望不那麼的悲情,如果仔細聽會發現我的表現方式已經發生了變化,我把自己的的確確整理好了,用整理好的心態區面對生活從容得多。”“不但如此,就連造型上也發生了很大變化啊!”“我平常就是這樣裝扮自己的,通常穿牛仔褲,然後這次夏天出片,就穿短裙”,我平常夏天的時候就是一個熱褲一個短裙。不過認識我的朋友看到我都會嚇一跳:“哇,你平常是這樣啊!”我喜歡保持自己的一貫性!”我的眼光不由得滑向她的一雙美腿,看到我看她的美腿,她不由得笑出來,有隱藏不住的一絲驕傲:“家堣k人都是這樣的腿型,大概就是遺傳吧。”這輕鬆讓多少女人羡慕到流口水呢!

 

玫瑰有刺

 

經歷過兩次挫折的感情,所以很多人懷疑辛曉琪敏感脆弱到隨時崩潰,於是問她是否沒有愛情就活不下去的時候,我有點小心翼翼。沒想到話一出口,立刻被她斬釘截鐵否認掉:“我不是!我平常的時候真是蠻單純的,很快樂,有時候會覺得有點愚蠢,看事情的時候,只會看到一個面,還有我很容易相信別人,輕信到朋友忍不住質問我“你為什麼願意相信別人的話呢”就這樣啦,單純到很自己年齡有點不相符合,還有我這個人很直,講話也很直,喜怒哀樂都是形於色的,我不會隱藏自己的感情。”這樣數落了自己一大堆缺點後,卻話鋒一轉:“如果女人只看到愛情,那就是個傻瓜,是也才是女人真正的依靠。”一句話,頓時有雲開月明之感,這樣的女人一定是充實而快樂的。我還想挖她最感性的一面,於是提起她在《領悟》的MV堶得肝腸寸斷,去年紅館演唱這首歌也哭了。她想一想,然後笑了一下:“其實MV的時候我真的是被那種氛圍感染到了,很傷心,我是很容易進入情境的,不過上次紅磡的時候,倒真的說不上是因為什麼,那歌已經很久沒唱了,反正很多有的沒的,情緒到達的時候就哭了,所以有的時候哭並不是一個單純的感動。還有……”話還沒說完就咯咯笑起來,“還有很好玩的,我第二天晚上又演出,想哭卻哭不出來了。人就是這樣的,沒辦法作假。不過第二天晚上後臺所有的男歌手都在賭,賭錢的,賭我今晚會不會哭,我一下來很多人就抱怨:“你為什麼不哭?害我輸錢!”“關我屁事啊!”我又一次想到了大咧咧這個詞,因為它感覺起來很快樂,完全放得開,因為辛曉琪是這樣一個女人

 

玫瑰保鮮期無限延長

 

鮮花的保鮮期大概一個禮拜,而女人呢,她們有多少年紀是新鮮的?這其實只要自己決定。最新專輯辛曉琪做了製作人,這是她續約滾石唯一的條件。專輯的造型她也是一操辦。“以前造型師會針對我的歌,反正一定是溫文婉約的一個女性,必須要穿一條條裙或者整個人就那麼規規矩矩的放著,大家覺得我應該是那樣的。不過當歌手當那麼多年,對自己越來越瞭解,我知道自己穿什麼會好看,穿什麼會更合適一些,所以從這張專輯開始,我就嘗試一些做造型。就是希望把平常的樣子搬出來,我不需要當歌手、演唱時是一個樣子,私底下又是另一個樣子,所以乾脆該怎麼樣就怎麼樣好了。”直到現在,辛曉琪依舊不害怕愛情:“愛情來了我就接受啊,但我更多的是用每張唱片來寫我生活的日子。所以我覺得自己每個階段的不同大概都可以體現在音樂上,人嘛,都是會變的,隨著年紀的增長,你對很多事情的看法和見解都會不同,就像我現在,我覺得自己蠻自在的,可以把自己很多事情表現在歌堶情A同時也表現在人身上。”的確從一個音樂人的音樂上,我們就能看到她的一切。堅持、自信、音樂理想,保鮮期無限延長中。

 

《當代歌壇》2004年第28

 

 

 

Since Winnie’s heart-breaking hit “Understanding”, she began to be associated with sorrow. Coupled with her rather bumpy love life, it all the more affirms one’s judgment about her.  However, she has another song which we are all familiar with, a rather cute and romantic one called “the cute rose”.  Her vocal in this song is so sweet that I find it hard to relate with her golden hit “understanding”.  But, Winnie stands on these two extremes.  Until I sat down face-to-face with her, I had always thought that I would see a gloomy face and hear a delicate voice that pains one’s heart.  But, when I meet her, I hear a crisp and nice voice.  "I am unhibited and placid.  I love to laugh."  From her new number “I will also fall in love with another”, one can feel that she is very happy and detached, completely and thoroughly overturning herself in the sorrowful “Understanding”.  We have all misunderstood Winnie and it is none other than herself who have caused it.  The sorrow in her songs were part of her life experiences, but these cannot change her nature of being simple and happy.  Even when she has come a long way, she is still like a full-bloom rose under the sun.

 

Because I am a very sentimental person, before I interviewed her, I was rather fearful that she, also being so sentimental, we would end up in tears.  But, I see before my eyes, a beautiful woman in a floral peach light blouse and knee-length jeans.  Her glittering eyes, her attractive smile, so trendy and youthful yeta sense of maturity.  “You are rather different from everyone’s imagination!”  I said and she replied with a chuckle.  “I supposed your impression of me still remains in those days of “Understanding”.  Actually, that is also me, but only a part of me, there is yet another side of me, cheerful, not bothering myself very much with trivial things or worry over too much details, rather happy-go-lucky, rather informal.”

 

 “I think I can indeed feel it now. In those days of “Understanding”, you always looked so hurt, but now, from your new song “I can also fall in love with another”, I can feel an obvious sense of peace and happiness.” 

 

 “Right.  I am at a stage when I have organized all my feelings and emotions.  I am settled within and completely at peace.  And so, today, even as I sing my former hits, I interpret those songs as one who has completely walked out of the pain, or as one who is singing another person’s lovestory.  Even though those songs may still make its listeners dwell in emotions of feeling hurt, but as I sing them now, I tend not to want to be so sorrowful.  If you do listen carefully, you can find that I have changed the way I handle these songs.  Since settling myself emotionally, now I live more at ease.” 

 

“Not just so, even your image has changed drastically!”  I exclaimed. 

 

 “That is exactly my usual look.  Typically, I would wear jeans.  This time, since my new album is released in summer, so, I also wear short skirts. My usual summer wear consists of mini-shorts and short skirts.  People who do know me well are all taken aback.  I just like to be myself.” 

 

I can’t help but turned my attention to her beautiful legs and when she noticed that I was staring at them, she uncontrollably laughed and couldn’t hide her sense of pride.  “It runs in the family, all the women in my family have nice legs", she said.

 

After going through two rough patches in her love life, many suspect that Winnie is sensitive, fragile to the extent that she can break down anytime.  I treaded on thin ice and asked her if she can still live on without love.  “No, I am not like this.  Usually, I am rather simple, and happy, sometimes, I feel that I am rather silly, I tend to see only one side of things, I tend to trust easily.  My friends even asked me why I am so willing to take people at their words.  I am simply like this, so simple that it sometimes does not befit my age.  Also, I am a very direct person and I am direct in expressing myself too, I do not hide my feelings, my emotions can be seen all over my face." 

 

After sharing on all her weaknesses, she turned around and said, “If a woman can only see romance, she may be silly, on the other hand, that is her real anchor and support.”  When I heard this, I thought to myself, this must indeed be a very happy and fulfilled woman.

 

After chatting so much, I still would like to discover the sentimental side of her and so, I mentioned that both in the music video and in one of the concerts in Hong Kong recently, she cried herself out while singing “Understanding”. 

 

She thought for a while then laugh, “Actually, in the mv, I was really very affected by the very sad atmosphere, I am the type who gets into the emotions easily.  But in that concert in Hong Kong, I also can’t exactly understand why I broke down.  I haven’t been singing this song for a long time and perhaps all kinds of emotions just suddenly gushed out.  It’s a mixture of all kinds of emotions."

 

Even before she could finish talking, she started laughing again, “the more funny thing is that on the second show the following night, I wanted to cry, but I just couldn’t.  So, it’s all so natural.  And, that night, all the other male artistes were betting at the backstage if I would cry again and when I got off stage, many of them blamed me “Hey!  Why didn’t you cry?  You made me lose my bet!”

 

“Ha, your bets are none of my business!”  Once again, I was reminded that Winnie is indeed “care-less”, very happy, able to let go completely.

 

A fresh flower perhaps can only last about a week.  And, for a woman, it all depends on herself.  Winnie became the producer of her own latest album, and in fact, that was the only condition she laid down when she extended her contract with Rock Records.  And she also styled and did on her own cover look for her album. 

 

"In the past, the designer/ stylist would work out something according to my songs, whatever it is, I would always appear graceful, restrained, usually in a long skirt, very prim and proper.  And everyone feels that I should be so.  But after being in this line for so many years, I begin to understand myself better and better.  I know what I look nice in or what suits me better.  So, from this album onwards, I want to try doing my own styling.  I just hope to be as close to my natural self as possible.  I don’t see the need to be different when I am performing or in my own private life.  And so, I'll just be who I am."

 

Until now, Winnie is still not fearful about romance.  “When it comes, I will just accept it.  As time passes, all of us tend to change and develop different perspectives or feel differently.  Most of the time, my albums are a reflection of my life.  Just like me, I feel rather carefree and at ease now because I can express my thoughts, my feelings, everything in my songs.”  Indeed, we can feel Winnie’s persistency, her self-confidence, her ideals/ her dreams in music from her songs.

 

 

 

 

 

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