角力 辛曉琪  

 

角力 辛曉琪

 

撰文黃家聰

 

 

 

 

人生每天都過角力的生活。

 

「為什麼要做辛曉琪訪問?她在香港不紅!」記者甲皺眉梢問道。還趕不來作回應,上司乙說:「好多人認識她,她唱的〈味道〉、〈領悟〉,到現在仍是什麼金曲精選碟的膽(必有)歌!所以一定要做專訪。」這回的角力以技術性擊倒。

 

我倒不是這樣想,能夠唱出〈味道〉、〈領悟〉這些節奏哀怨,歌詞感人的歌曲,背後一定有不少人生經歷,所以她的故事一定很動人,能吸引到讀者。不過在互聯網及資料室中,並沒有太多有關她的檔案,無論在公在私,更加希望見到這位曾叱中港台,在九十年代奪得多個獎項,背景卻充滿神秘色彩的辛曉琪。

 

但沒想到,與辛曉琪做專訪,是另一場角力賽的開始。

 

〈領悟〉——九四年新城電台勁爆國語歌曲金獎;〈味道〉——九五年新城電台勁爆國語歌曲金獎;九六年香港電台優秀國語歌曲金獎;還未算中國、台灣及其他亞洲華語地區所獲的獎項,辛曉琪差不多囊括九五、九六年華語地區的國語金曲獎,而歌迷亦因而認識她。

 

 

 

 

 

 

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到現在這兩首歌仍會在 K 房或是歌唱比賽中聽到,主要原因除了旋律起伏大考唱功外,亦是辛曉琪演繹得非常傷感,每當聽到這兩首歌時,一幕幕傷感的愛情故事即時投射到眼前,打動起聽眾心靈,勾起同感。

 

要唱得出這樣傷感的故事,少些人生經歷都絕對不能,年屆四十二歲的辛曉琪,人生經歷當然豐富,但原來主因是她的音樂造詣高,「我能夠唱出這些又苦、又悲哀的歌曲,當然是我有許多愛情路上的經驗,所以有感情唱歌,但是這並不是主因,主因是我高中、大學七年主修聲樂,副修鋼琴,選修小、大提琴,所以在聲音方面,當然可以唱得有感情,處理得到任何歌!」

 

正當想打蛇隨棍上,繼續問她感情世界時,誰不知,她立即找助手表示過往說得太多感情事了,所以不想說,結果與記者角力了幾分鐘,她才說:「我試過幾次愛情,分手後現在就沒有拍拖,而以往的愛情都可以在報紙看到!」在資料得知她曾有多段愛情,當中與比她細十五歲的男 Fan 拍拖的一段最為轟動,她回應:「除了開始時,我還有一點戀愛的快樂,之後的時候,內心掙扎,所以一點都不快樂!」

 

這位比她細十五年的男友,是她的歌迷,二人在台灣機場相遇,這位歌迷竟大膽向偶像取電話號碼,最終打動了辛曉琪。

 

姊弟戀的領悟

 

「開始時,我不理會外間眼光如何反對,去愛一位比自己少十五年的男孩,戀愛三年,我還看他大學畢業,那時我以為只要二人相愛,年齡不成問題;但當熱戀過去,就是痛苦的來臨,始終年齡有別,思想和觀念都有不同,開始時他會依賴我,感覺很甜蜜,但時間久了,依賴成了一種負擔,最終承受不了,分手收場!」

 

情人分手理應是傷心,但這三年的「姐弟戀」,辛曉琪竟感覺解脫!她飛往瀋陽與父母一家住了一個月,再回台北,重投歌唱事業。

 

由於辛曉琪的慘歌,實在太深入民心,所以筆者會以為她是多愁善感的藝人,但在訪問中,不時流露比年紀要細的笑容,看來與心目中的辛曉琪有很大出入。

 

「這個形象,其實不只你,好多不太了解我的人,亦以為我是這類悲傷的女人,卻其實我是個好豁達同好率直的人,之所以有這個形象給人,主要是大眾對歌曲〈味道〉及〈領悟〉深刻得太過了。其實我多年來,有不同類型的作品(歌曲),但仍然與『慘』字脫不離!」

 

 

 

古樂的叛徒

 

眾所周知,古典音樂與流行音樂,是兩大對立的音樂門派,而修古典音樂的辛曉琪,成為流行歌手,亦令她損失不少好友:「由於我諗的聲樂,彈的是古典音樂,身邊一班玩古典音樂的朋友視我為叛徒,但我沒有後悔機會來到!我好喜歡唱歌,亦非常開心唱過經典的〈領悟〉。」

 

對於一個從小就熱愛音樂的歌手,估不到她竟曾萌起退休念頭,「〈領悟〉、〈味道〉令我有理想的唱片銷量,但之前的唱片,我都好用心去做,但卻沒有人去留意,所以有退休念頭,不過人大了,領略到事情會有很多可能性,結果開始意會到鑽牛角尖只會浪費時間,退休念頭便打消了!」

 

對於音樂的堅持及性格的率直,又令辛曉琪得到不少好友,「我對音樂要求好高,每首歌都會要求三、四個人填詞,然後再揀最好的!好似〈味道〉,我就要求改了三次,才得到現在的版本。由於我對音樂的熱誠,所以得到一班同是喜愛音樂的藝人,好像張雨、蘇蕊、伍思凱、許茹芸等等,而在眾多好友中,以哥哥張國榮的感覺最大。」有幸與哥哥合唱〈深情相擁〉、〈眉來眼去〉,當然非常難忘。

 

「哥哥」的味道

 

「由於我不會說廣東話,於是哥哥教我唱〈眉來眼去〉這歌的發音,他非常體貼溫柔,及後在九六年的世界巡迴演唱會中,我又作了他二十六場港台兩地的特別嘉賓,而在其中一場,他突然從袋堮酗F一隻戒指,還幫我戴,至今他的禮物,我仍然 Keep 住,不時回味與哥哥在台上的情景,不過當知道哥哥死訊,身為朋友的我就非常傷心,至今仍對哥哥懷念不已。」

 

在樂壇打滾多年,面對自己事業起落,與愛人分手,朋友離開,辛曉琪學懂用平常心面對事情。「我知道娛樂圈不會紅一輩子,我不會言休,就算我不再紅,都要出唱片。我不愛音樂了,因為我會為音樂角力到底!」

 

打個平手

 

與辛曉琪拍攝及訪問地點是銅鑼灣的大型卡啦 OK 店,訪問期間,助手突然點起辛曉琪的名曲〈領悟〉,她一見到,立即說「Cut!」,原來她已對〈領悟〉有點怕,接解釋︰「我唱了這首歌數百次,如非必要,平日我唔會聽!」

 

又難得與辛曉琪唱 K,當然希望聽她高歌一曲,不過她又 Say No!︰「我平日好少唱 K,想聽我唱,睇我演唱會啦!」今回角力賽,筆者輸了,幸好她都跟我談了很多戀愛往事,算一比一打個平手。

 

 

 

【2004-08-17/香港快周刊

 

Life is just like a wrestling circle and one has to wrestle against many things daily.

 

On this day, I "wrestled" with my boss.  "Why do I have to interview Winnie Hsin?  She is not popular in Hong Kong!" I frowned deeply and asked.  Boss said, "Many people know her.  Her hits "Scent" and "Understanding" are still "must-include" tracks in Golden Hits albums. So, we must definitely interview her."

 

And so, I lost round one.

 

 

 

I thought, for someone who is able to bring out such deep emotions out of these sorrowful tunes with moving lyrics, she must have very rich life experiences and so, her story must be very touching, it can then attract readers.  However, I couldn't find much information on her on the internet nor in the resource centre.  I began to look forward to meet Winnie who had swept so many awards and who was so popular in the music circle of China, Hong Kong and Taiwan and yet whose background seems so mysterious.

Little did I expect that the interview with Winnie marks the start of the second round of wrestling.

 

"Understanding" - Gold award of 1994 Hong Kong Metro Radio Station Music Award.

 

"Scent" - Gold award of 1995 Hong Kong Metro Radio Station Music Award & Gold award of 1996 Hong Kong RHTK Radio Station Music Award .

 

The hits "Understanding" and "Scent" won Winnie numerous music awards in just that two years alone and the above are only a few out of the countless she has won.  Through these hits, many people also got to know more about her.

 

Up till today, these two golden hits of Winnie are still widely heard in KTV or singing competitions.  Besides the fact that it's really not an easy song to sing due to its wide-ranging rhyme, its touching lyrics filled with certain sadness, sang by Winnie with such deep emotions, never fail to move the listener.

 

To be able to bring out such deep emotions from these songs, one must have experienced a lot in life, just like Winnie.  Besides her life experience, Winnie's vocal strength also contributes a great part to the success of these songs.  Winnie received professional vocal training through her years in High School and varsity.  She also majored in piano and minored in violin and cello. With such strong music backing, of course, she can handle any songs with little effort.

 

Just as I was about to ask further on her relationships, she related through her assistant that she had been asked too many times on her relationships and she had already said a lot, so, she does not feel like repeating herself again.  After "wrestling" for a few minutes with me, she finally said, "I had several relationships. Now I am not seeing anyone.  About the past relationships, you can read from the papers."  From the media, I got to know that of the several relationships Winnie had, one was with a fan 15 years her junior.  "Apart from the beginning when I did feel a little happy, during the rest of the time, there were a lot of inner struggles and I did not feel happy at all."

 

Winnie met this fan in the Taiwan airport.  He was very bold and even asked for her phone number.  In the end, she was moved by him.

 

"I was not bothered about what other people think or say about me loving someone so much younger.  We were together for 3 years,  I watched him graduate.  I thought so long as we love each other, our age difference is not a problem.  But, after the initial happiness, problems begin to arise.  Afterall, difference in age means difference in thinking and perspective.  He was very dependent on me, it was sweet initially, but later it became a burden.  Subsequently, it became too much and we parted our ways."  Instead of feeling sad after their relationship ended, she felt relieved.  At that time, she flew to Shenyang and spent a month with her parents before returning to Taipei to concentrate on her career again.

 

Because of her songs typically filled with so much sadness, I thought that she is a melancholic person, but through the interview, contrary to what I think, she is so youthful and cheerful.

 

"Not only you, many people who do not understand me also thought that I am a sad person.  But, I am actually freehearted, frank and direct.  Those two songs are too deeply entrenched in everybody's mind.  Although I had sang a variety of other kinds of songs subsequently, people still relate me with sorrow and sadness."

 

Classical music and pop music have always been known to be two opposing camps.  And for one who was trained in classical music, when Winnie became a pop singer, she lost many good friends.  "Because I studied Classical music in school, I had many friends in that area.  When I joined the pop music circle, they took me for a traitor.  But I did not regret.  I love singing and I am very happy to have sung "Understanding", which is such a classic."

For someone who has loved music since young, I am surprised that she had actually entertained the idea of quitting.  "The results of the two albums, "Understanding" and "Scent" were very ideal.  Nevertheless, even though I put in a lot of effort into other albums, they were not as well-accepted, so I did consider quitting.  But, now I learn that life is full of possibilities, so thinking too much is just a waste of time.  Since then, I never thought of retiring again."

Her insistence on music and direct nature also brought her many good friends.  "I am rather demanding when it comes to music.  Every time I would at least get three or four composers to write the lyrics, then I choose the best.  For example, for the song "Scent", it as changed three times before the existing version was finalised.  As a result of my fervor for music, I gained a group of good friends who also love music and amongst them is Leslie Cheung."  It is indeed unforgettable to have sung two duets with him.

"As I can't speak Cantonese, when we were recording our duet in Cantonese, Leslie patiently taught me how to pronounce each word in the lyrics.  He is very thoughtful and gentle.  Subsequently, I was also invited to be his guest star in his 1996 concerts in Hong Kong and Taiwan, 26 shows in all.  In one of them, he even surprised me by presenting me with a ring as a gift. I am still keeping the ring now and it brings back fond memories of being with him on the stage.  When I heard about his passing away, my heart really broke.  I still miss him very much now." 

After being in the music circle for all these while, after having to face peaks and troughs in her career, after the end of a relationship, after the passing away of a dear friend, Winnie has learnt to be at peace and see things with an open mind.  "I know that in the entertainment circle, no one can stay at the peak forever, but I will not quit, even if I am not as popular anymore, I will continue singing."

 

The venue of our interview that day was at a very big KTV in Causeway Bay.  In the course of our interview, Winnie's assistant selected her song "Understanding" from the system.  When she heard the song, she immediately said "Cut!".  She explained that she has grown a phobia towards the song as she had sung it several hundred times.  Unless necessary, she does not even listen to it now. 

 

Since it is such a rare opportunity to be with her in a KTV, naturally I hope to hear her sing KTV. But she said no again.  "I hardly sing KTV.  If you want to hear me sing, do come to my concert, ok?

 

In this round of "wresting", I lost again.  But fortunately, she did share quite a bit on her romances.  So, we are quits!